Come back and never leave my side again
Did you ever have that moment where you realize the one you were looking for was right in front of you? That you couldn’t see her because you always only looked in one direction, and you realized it all one day too late?
Yes, that moment of regret and pain. You remember that, don’t you? Or maybe it’s not that you remember as much as you can’t find it in yourself to forget that time. You’re afraid of losing your memory of her, realizing it’s the only thing she left you. And it’s a double-edged sword: You remember her and feel happy but the sadness soon follows and you can’t help but be remorseful knowing it’s your fault why you’re hurting the way you do.
You can’t help but smile when you see her picture; you can’t help but let tears fall when you stare at a picture of you together. You want her to come back but she won’t. You want to go to them but you can’t. Your heart screams so loud you break down and cry yourself to sleep. You woke up and wished you never did. You thought you’d have a better chance of being with her in your dreams than in this sick, imaginary world called reality
You end up wanting to go back in time and change everything but you can’t. You wish you saw the way she looked at you but it won’t come true. You know all the answers to all your questions and it all boils down to being your fault why you lost her.
You had to try and get someone to love you back that you didn’t see how much someone else adored you without needing any of it returned. You learned soon that the one you tried so hard wasn’t worth the pain of losing the one who loved you at all.
She went far to focus on what she started, leaving you so she can love someone else. And that someone won’t have their eyes fixed on one thing alone and he’ll have all the time in the world for her. And you’re just there, in front of your computer, writing your lonely story for everyone to see hoping she might see it too and rekindle the flame she once burned for you and only you.
And it’s all your fault.