The 9th Soul

I’m officially an old-year old (30)

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on September 25, 2019

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I’m no longer young, but I still have youth. I’m a year closer to death, and I’ve never felt more alive. (more…)

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A recurring jolt of pain at the center of my chest

Posted in life, Special posts, Uncategorized by Fated Blue on September 22, 2019

Sometimes…

When I’m alone, somehow thoughts of a “special” someone crash open the gates of my otherwise barricaded subconsciousness. And my thoughts tell me that she’s out there, waiting for something extraordinary to happen to her.

And while she waits, she’ll suffer on the inside as she stays strong on the outside, holding everyone’s shit together like they’re hers.

This happens a lot at night, even more when no one’s at home, especially when I’m listening to some sad Japanese songs during the day.

I feel like she’s waiting for me, and that I should go to her.

…and listening to Aimer makes me feel like she’s in Japan.

I’m just…bothered. I’m almost 30 years old as of this writing (literally three days away), and I’m having an existential crisis manifesting itself as an emotional longing for someone with a similar fate, with the same playing cards I have in life.

Is this temporary? Is this triggered by the breaking of the 30-year barrier? Is this thought valid both mentally and emotionally?

I don’t know. All I know is, right now I feel like she’s waiting for me, and my heart longs for her.

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Game of Thrones Epilogue: Sandor Clegane and Sansa Stark

Posted in entertainment, Special posts by Fated Blue on May 23, 2019

(So Game of Thrones finally concluded. I’ve got a lot to say about it, but I am at least satisfied with how they did the third part of the episode especially since it involved Sansa being Queen in the North. However, I think they did Sandor wrong by just killing him with his brother. I’m a SanSan fanatic by the way, so understand where my bias is coming from.

With that said, I imagined a short story of how Sandor survived Kingslanding and became Sansa’s Lord Commander of the Queensguard. Brienne is no longer guarding Sansa, so it would make sense for the Hound to become her personal bodyguard.

This epilogue also serves to tell us the purpose of Arya’s white horse. I mean, what the hell was that for, right?

Leave your comments below and tell me what you think. I’m by no means a storyteller or a fan fiction artist. I just like SanSan.)

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Thoughts about the MCU after Infinity Wars

Posted in entertainment, Random, Special posts by Fated Blue on May 3, 2018

Watched one of Pewd’s recent videos and he made a commentary on the MCU.

Pewds said it’s unbelievable that after almost 20 films, people are still getting excited over a new movie or a new character reveal. It’s unbelievable how people don’t notice that almost every movie is just a reskin of the previous ones. He is also frustrated how it affects the number of films he could watch during its screening, with almost every cinema showing just one movie for two weeks, forcing “other” fans to wait for the Blu Ray release of these other films.

And I agree.

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Prejudice and What Changed Me

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on May 1, 2018

You know, growing up and receiving education in a “Catholic Country” (a title I think should be reconsidered) once made me think less of gay people, wrongfully judge those who have premarital sex, be disgusted with prostitutes, and abhor any form of abortion.

Seriously, as a kid who didn’t know any better, I used to make jokes about them, used them as examples of sinners and criminals in essays, and pretty much conclude that I’m superior simply because I am not like them. Needless to say, I was pretty prejudiced as a child.

It wasn’t until I read a lot of books, met a lot of people, and opened up to other people’s opinions that I realized how narrowminded and socially inconsiderate our country was. Having met people who were gay, had premarital sex, dabbed into prostitution, and once or twice had an abortion also cleared up any misconception I had of them.

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To the woman who stole my heart one night in Siargao

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on April 23, 2018

For five years I kept telling myself I’ll go through life alone. Ever since another woman left me in pieces, I swore not to feel that kind of pain again.

And for five years it worked. I became successful, I was able to go to places I once dreamed of, I am now able to afford things I used to only wish for.

Then I met you.

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I am sorry for my #JusticeForKian posts.

Posted in internet news, life, Special posts by Fated Blue on August 21, 2017
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At this point, I’m sure the lot of you have grown weary with the barrage of EJK-relate posts surfacing and resurfacing over and over again. You probably feel like hiding or unfollowing people who share posts related or in response to Kian’s unfortunate demise. Even religious institutions had a page of obviously-political-and-biased words to say about that.

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