The 9th Soul

Farewell kawai5210, you lived and passed while others just existed and vanished

Posted in health, health defects, life by Fated Blue on April 8, 2010

I haven’t logged in Pex all day and this is the news I get. I made a blog about him recently to spread his positive outlook despite his unfortunate circumstance.

Their friend got a message from misty which provided the unfortunate news

Misty texted me again:

April 8, 2010

3:43 pm

“________(Kawai)’s no longer with us….”

Kawai already passed away this afternoon.

I am gonna try to call Misty. This is a very sad day.

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“I’m dying… and I love her…” – kawai5210

Posted in health, health defects, life by Fated Blue on April 7, 2010

My day ends in grief. I was happily browsing Pex when I chanced upon a very interesting thread titled “I’m dying… and I love her…“. It’s this thread made by kawai5210, a terminally ill man who suffers from leukemia. The flames of his love for one member, mistyblue2852, suddenly grew brighter than the sun as he wished to convey his true feelings for her.

I’ll be quoting some of their posts to document this love story we all often associate with books or movies. Please read the thread if you are interested on how the story developed.

kawai started with

Hi guys!

My girl na na-meet ako dito sa pex and we became friends. Naging constant ang communication namin. Pex, fb, ym, sms, and tinatawagan ko sya and sya rin naman.
What happened now is eto, I love her yes, but hindi ko masabi sa kanya dahil sa sitwasyon ko.
Three months ago I found out that I only have less than a year to stay with the living… At first ‘di ko matanggap coz I’m only 27yrs old but at the end I accepted it na and thinking na it’s God’s plan…

Problema ko kung paano ko sasabihin sa kanya ang lahat lalo na yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Dapat ba na malaman pa nya na I’m inlove with her? Ayoko rin naman na masaktan sya sa huli. But I have this wish na gusto ko sanang nasa tabi ko sya when I took my last breathe…

I’m planning to give her a surprise visit. Nasa Taiwan kasi sya and ang tagal na rin naman nya akong ini-invite mag-tour duon. Ipapasyal daw nya ko sa buong Taiwan.

Guys, dapat ba na sabihin kong mahal ko sya?
Kailan at paano ang tamang pagkakataon na gawin ito?

Ang hirap pero masaya ako sa nangyayari dahil nararamdaman kong buhay pa’ko dahil sa problemang ito.

Thanks!

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MTV Philippines End with “Video Killed the Radio Star”

Posted in entertainment, life, Special posts, youtube shows by Fated Blue on February 16, 2010

In lieu with the recent passing of MTV Philippines, I watched it all the way ’til this song entitled “Video Killed the Radio Star” played as the last song in their playlist.

After that was a long black screen of nothingness.

It wasn’t really special and all…supposedly.

If you’ve been keeping tabs on how bloggers responded to MTV Philippines’ demise, this tumblr blogger unknowingly gave whoever was in control of this twitter account the idea of the last song to be played.

Farewell MTV Philippines. I cannot anymore add anything to say to you after thousands upon thousands of people have already said their own personal piece. I can only offer this little space in my blog in your remembrance.

Thank you for all the good days and nights. Thank you for Ramon Bautista specially. Also to Sarah Meier and KC Montero.

See you in the future!

PS: Prior to the last video, Semisonic’s “Closing time” became the penultimate song of MTV Philippines. To the ordinary watcher they just seemed to be random songs. But to fans like us, they give meaning and emotion on a very subtle, humble, and very passionate goodbye.

Gucci bitch: Gusto mong nagbabasa ng blog ko diba? o eto, basahin mo.

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on October 16, 2009

LOL kung mabasa mo man ‘to xD sorry nalang sa mga sasabihin ko dito. Wala na ko sa sarili ko habang nagsusulat nito. Bahala na kung anu ang mapulot mong aral dito. Ilang buwan na din nung huling sumulat ako dito ng totoong BLOG. Sana maenjoy mo ‘to tulad ng pag enjoy ko sa pagsusulat na ginawa ko dito!

Matagal ko nang alam na avid fan ka ng blogs ko sa multiply. Yung tipong kahit may codename na and all, ang feelingera mo masyado at nalaman mong tungkol sya sa’yo. Ang talas naman ng pagiging KSP mo. Kahit naka codename na, alam mong ikaw pa rin ang pinaguusapan. Ganyan talaga eh, papansin ka. Nasa dugo mo na ang magpapansin. Puro ka pa-cute pero ang totoo pakyu ka! xD

Nakakabanas lang kasi. Noon natitiis ko pa yung ugali mong di pagtya-tyagaan ng isang normal na tao. Marahil di ako normal, pero nagising na’ko sa katotohanan: Wala kang kwentang tao.

Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko, tinakpan ko ang mga tainga ko, nagpa manhid ako para sa’yo kasi nagustuhan kita. Pero wala eh, masyado nang malakas ang pagiging gago mo para pagtakpan ko pa sa sarili kong kaluluwa.

Kadiri ka na. Dati lagi kong naiisip na mali yung pinagsasabi ng mga kaklase natin tungkol sa’yo. Sabi nila nahihibang ako para kampihan ka. Sabi nila love is blind nga. Sabi nila waste of everything ka. Lahat yun pinaglaban ko kahit na ayaw mo sa’kin kasi naisip ko na di naman siguro totoo yung mga yun. Pero akalain mong mali ako.

Minahal kita kasi di ko matukoy kung bakit kita mahal. Tatlong beses lang ako nagkagusto sa isang babae. Yung una kasi magaling syang kumanta ang maganda ang boses nya. Yung pangalawa kasi magaling sya sa mga art na ginagamitan ng kamay. Sa’yo lang naman ako nahilo eh. Nang tinamaan ako sa’yo, talagang inisip ko kung bakit ba ko in-love sa’yo.

Naisip ko na lang na minahal kita kasi di ko alam kung bakit dapat kang mahalin.

Pero…ang lahat ng iyon ay pawang kalokohan lang pala. Masyado akong nagandahan sa’yo. Yun lang yun siguro. Naging mababaw na ang pananaw ko sa pag-ibig. Nababawasan na’ko ng utak at napupuno ito ng tanga.

Kung alam mo lang sana kung gaanu kasama yang boyfriend mong yan. Di ko lang sinasabi sa’yo kasi malamang di ka maniniwala sa’kin. Ayoko namang sabihin sa mga friends mo at malamang di rin sila maniniwala sa’kin. Pero eto lang, masamang damo yan. Ibayong pag-iingat ang payo ko. Lalo na’t tatanga-tanga ka.

Kamusta nga pala yung isa mo pang lover? ang close nyo kasi na parang dalawa boyfriend mo. Dati di ko nilalagyan ng malisya yung bonding moments nyo, pero ngayong nagising na’ko sa katotohanan, tang ina pok pok ka ba? Ganun ba kasarap ibenta ang sarili mo sa mga lalaking mahilig tumangkilik sa mga ibibigay mong ligaya? Anu na ang nangyari sa babaeng minahal ko? “Andun, nagbebenta ng laman sa kabilang kanto” sabi ng konsensya ko.

Alam mo pa yung di ko maintindihan sa’yo? yung tipong TATLONG taon kang galit sa’kin. Hanggang ngayon. Kahit ako, di ko na alam ang pinagmulan ng galit mo. First year palang tayo, humihingi nako ng tawad sa’yo kasi ayoko kitang makaaway. ANG KASO ikaw ‘tong ayaw tumanggap ng sorry. Ni wala nga akong maalalang ginawang masama sa’yo noon eh. Ikaw ba alam mo ang rason kung bakit di mo ko kinakausap hanggang ngayon? Pustahan nagka alzheimer’s ka at di mo rin matandaan. Kung anu man yun, ang tindi naman masyado. 3 taon, since first year. EH nagusap lang tayo FIRST THREE DAYS NG KLASE. Tapos ever since then, kunwari bingi ka pag ako ang kaharap mo.

Tapos nung retreat natin last july. Nagsorry din ako. Kasi gusto ko na talagang matapos ‘to at kahit papaano maging casual friend man lang kita. Eh anung ginawa mo? nagbingi bingihan ka. Pinagmukha mo ‘kong tanga. Ang dami ko pang sinabi na tipong kulang nalang eh lumuhod ako sa harap mo at mag laslas ng leeg. Binaliwala mo lang ang lahat.

Naalala ko pa last sem, kinausap ako ng 2 friends ko tungkol sa “feelings” ko para sa’yo. sabi nila not worth it ka. may nakikita daw sila na obvious pero di ko raw pinapansin. sabi nila buksan ko raw ang mata ko. kahit daw mga CLOSE friends mo sabi may ugali kang gago. Nalungkot ako nang marinig ko yun mula sa 2 close friends ko sa klase. di ko alam kung sino ang paniniwalaan ko: sila o ang nararamdaman ko para sa’yo. Na-ulol siguro ako at mas pinili ko yung maling sagot.

Nawawalan na siguro ako sa tamang pag iisip kung iisipin ko pang matino kang babae. Maganda ka lang. Yun lang ata ang basehan ko kung bakit ako na in love sa’yo. Ganda lang yan. Sabi nga ni Bob Ong, lahat ng magaganda at guwapo, pag tanda, eh magmumukhang pandesal.

Di ko na mahintay ang araw na gaganti ako sa’yo.

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Patrick Swayze dies at 57. Pancreatic Cancer.

Posted in entertainment, health, health defects by Fated Blue on September 15, 2009

SOURCE

Actor Patrick Swayze has died at the age of 57 after a long, debilitating battling with pancreatic cancer, since he was diagnosed with the disease in January 2008.

Swayze’s battle against the stage 4 pancreatic cancer showcased the fighting spirit that made him such a believable silver screen protagonist.

He made headlines with his blunt introspection regarding his grave condition when he told Barbara Walters, “I’d say five years is pretty wishful thinking — two years seems likely if you’re going to believe statistics. I want to last until they find a cure, which means I’d better get a fire under it.”

Rest In Peace, Beast 🙂

Erdy Manalo dies at 84

Posted in health, health defects by Fated Blue on September 1, 2009

Okay, I am not affiliated with the InC but I do know well who to pay respect to. So I offer my sincerest condolences in the best way I could do it: By sharing a space on my wordpress.

Here’s the NEWS

C.O.D?

The minister died of cardiopulmonary arrest, which according to http://www.freedictionary.com, is the failure of ventricles of the heart to contract, with the consequent absence of the heartbeat leading to lack of oxygen.

I pray for the man who made the InC what it is today.

9-07-09 EDIT: Changed name. I fail for confusing famous people’s names.

MJ, Farrah, Dies today

Posted in entertainment, health, health defects, internet news by Fated Blue on June 26, 2009

I woke up today to find out that one of my favorite artists died of a heart attack. And to make things worse, one of my favorite angels died too.

I knew Michael Jackson as the king of pop at a very young age. I always loved the way he performs on stage and the way he makes the crowd go wild and the girls faint. I wanted to have that kind of charm ever since I saw him on TV. For me, he was the coolest guy back then.

Farrah Fawcett, I never really got to know who she was or how she performed on TV or the movies, but I knew she was once the woman every guy would die for.

Rest In Peace, you two.

Articles about their death

Michael Jackson

Farrah Fawcett