The 9th Soul

I used to love college math

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on April 5, 2021


Differential Calc, Integral Calc, Physical Chemistry, Geometry, and Statistics were some of my favorite subjects. Don’t get me wrong; I sucked at them, but there’s a different thrill about how one wrong decimal point or symbol can mean repeating the subject again next semester.

There was a time when you can show me an entire whiteboard’s length of math and I’d have the answer in less than five minutes, sometimes even without a calculator if the problem was simple enough.


In fact, one of my professors even noticed, during afternoon recitation, how I was able to answer math problems without even writing them down – solving it all inside my head. This professor would write a problem down and I’d be among the first ones to have their hands up to answer. At least, I’d be the first one who wasn’t shy about answering.

After class was over, she asked me about how I was able to do that. I said “I solve the numbers separately inside my head, and combine them afterwards.”


The best way I can describe it is it was a lot like playing with a Rubik’s Cube, but instead of following the rules of the Cube, you disassemble the damn thing and reassemble it with all the colored cubes on the same side. You would still arrive at the same answer, but your method would be unorthodox and would not be accepted in the actual tests, thus resulting to a few deducted points. I didn’t care back then, but sometimes I wish I did because maybe I would have gotten a medal or two.


Today, I see a math problem and I no longer recognize the symbols I once loved writing. I am more likely to type a simple, gradeschool equation in Google than mentally solve it, and quite frankly I don’t mind.


Nothing lasts forever, and that allows us to appreciate them while we still have the opportunity to do so. A world where nothing fades is a world where no one cares about anything or each other.

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Movie Review: The Irony of Fate (Russia, 1976)

Posted in entertainment, life, Special posts by Fated Blue on November 30, 2020
This could very well be Russia’s greatest love story

Okay, first of all, it’s been a looooong while since I did a movie review. Why? Because I was always swamped with work, that’s why. Also, I got into a lazy habit of just not writing anything new and letting life take me where it wants me to go.

But yeah, laziness is probably the more practical term.

Anyway, where do I begin?

So this film is called The Irony of Fate and it’s one of Russia’s most popular films ever. Before I get to my review, I want to discuss why I currently find myself in a whirlpool of Russian love stories.

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Wrong Number

Posted in Uncategorized by Fated Blue on November 11, 2020

Totoo pala na habang tumatanda, mas lalo tayong nagiging parang isip bata sa dami ng mga bagay na bigla nating kinakatakutan, tulad ng pagiging mag-isa.

Kasi naisip ko lang, nakakatakot palang mamuhay ng walang kasama; ng walang kausap at walang nangi-istorbo sa ginagawa mo.

Nakakatakot pala na paggising mo mula sa isang masamang panaginip, kadiliman at katahimikan lamang ang kakamusta sa’yo.

Kapag masama ang pakiramdam mo, walang magsasabi sayo kung nasaan ang gamot o kung anu ang magandang inumin. Wala ring magpapakulo ng tubig kapag umuwi kang basang-basa sa ulan para kahit papaano maginhawaan ka sa pagligo.

Minsan naiisip mo kung anu nga ba ang pinagkaiba ng bahay mo sa isang bedspace o maliit na apartment. Bahay pa nga ba ito, o isang malaking tulugan na lang?

Kung anung itsura ng bahay mo nang iniwan mo ito, siya ring itsura nya pagdating mo. Di ka na ginaganahang magluto, magwalis, o magbukas ng ilaw at bintana. Tuwing umaga, nagmamadali kang umalis. Pagsapit ng gabi, wala kang ganang umuwi.

Mabibilang mo nalang ang mga salitang lumalabas sa bibig mo pag nasa bahay ka. Huni ng ibon, tahol ng aso, pagbusina ng sasakyan, nagaaway na kapitbahay, mga natitirang bakas na hindi lang mga kanta mula sa internet ang kayang marinig ng bahay mo.

Masuwerte nalang kung may nagkamali ng pag dial sa telepono at tumawag sa’yo, para kahit papaano maalala ng bahay mo kung anu ang pakiramdam na may nakatira pang isang tao bukod sa’yo.

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Bagong Dekada. Bagong Ikaw.

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on December 10, 2019

Malapit na namang matapos ang isang dekada. Kung di mo pa ginagawa, bitawan mo na.

Mahirap magdala ng mabigat na bagahe na hindi mo naman napapakinabangan lalo na at matagal nang nawala yung tunay nitong may ari.

Sa pagpasok ng bagong taon, travel light nalang tayo.

Puwede na ang backpack. Libre pa ang carry-on.

Mas masayang bumiyahe kung wala kang masyadong bitbit at maluwag mong nagagawa ang lahat ng gusto mo dahil magaan ang pakiramdam mo.

Huwag mo tularan yung mga taong kailangan dala ang buong bahay tuwing may pupuntahan.

Kung ang dala mo ay magpapaalala lang sa’yo ng parte ng buhay mo na nais mo nang kalimutan, bakit bumiyahe ka pa?

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I’m officially an old-year old (30)

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on September 25, 2019

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I’m no longer young, but I still have youth. I’m a year closer to death, and I’ve never felt more alive. (more…)

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To the woman who stole my heart one night in Siargao

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on April 23, 2018

For five years I kept telling myself I’ll go through life alone. Ever since another woman left me in pieces, I swore not to feel that kind of pain again.

And for five years it worked. I became successful, I was able to go to places I once dreamed of, I am now able to afford things I used to only wish for.

Then I met you.

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I am sorry for my #JusticeForKian posts.

Posted in internet news, life, Special posts by Fated Blue on August 21, 2017
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At this point, I’m sure the lot of you have grown weary with the barrage of EJK-relate posts surfacing and resurfacing over and over again. You probably feel like hiding or unfollowing people who share posts related or in response to Kian’s unfortunate demise. Even religious institutions had a page of obviously-political-and-biased words to say about that.

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