The 9th Soul

Bagong Dekada. Bagong Ikaw.

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on December 10, 2019

Malapit na namang matapos ang isang dekada. Kung di mo pa ginagawa, bitawan mo na.

Mahirap magdala ng mabigat na bagahe na hindi mo naman napapakinabangan lalo na at matagal nang nawala yung tunay nitong may ari.

Sa pagpasok ng bagong taon, travel light nalang tayo.

Puwede na ang backpack. Libre pa ang carry-on.

Mas masayang bumiyahe kung wala kang masyadong bitbit at maluwag mong nagagawa ang lahat ng gusto mo dahil magaan ang pakiramdam mo.

Huwag mo tularan yung mga taong kailangan dala ang buong bahay tuwing may pupuntahan.

Kung ang dala mo ay magpapaalala lang sa’yo ng parte ng buhay mo na nais mo nang kalimutan, bakit bumiyahe ka pa?

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Eight weeks with Anki to Learn Japanese

Posted in life by Fated Blue on October 5, 2019
Eight weeks using free apps to learn Japanese. I downloaded the rest of the parts of the flashcards and was surprised to find out there were ten parts in total. I’m currently working on two separate parts right now because I feel like I can do it given the free time I have.

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Seven weeks with Anki to Learn Japanese

Posted in life by Fated Blue on October 5, 2019

Seven weeks in my Japanese language learning journey with apps.

I’m now able to form proper sentences that are useful for asking directions, choosing what you want to buy, what time you got up, describing the weather, which part of your body hurts, telling someone what you ate today, and how my pet dog got sick and died (yeah, this was an actual example).

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I’m officially an old-year old (30)

Posted in life, Special posts by Fated Blue on September 25, 2019

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I’m no longer young, but I still have youth. I’m a year closer to death, and I’ve never felt more alive. (more…)

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A recurring jolt of pain at the center of my chest

Posted in life, Special posts, Uncategorized by Fated Blue on September 22, 2019

Sometimes…

When I’m alone, somehow thoughts of a “special” someone crash open the gates of my otherwise barricaded subconsciousness. And my thoughts tell me that she’s out there, waiting for something extraordinary to happen to her.

And while she waits, she’ll suffer on the inside as she stays strong on the outside, holding everyone’s shit together like they’re hers.

This happens a lot at night, even more when no one’s at home, especially when I’m listening to some sad Japanese songs during the day.

I feel like she’s waiting for me, and that I should go to her.

…and listening to Aimer makes me feel like she’s in Japan.

I’m just…bothered. I’m almost 30 years old as of this writing (literally three days away), and I’m having an existential crisis manifesting itself as an emotional longing for someone with a similar fate, with the same playing cards I have in life.

Is this temporary? Is this triggered by the breaking of the 30-year barrier? Is this thought valid both mentally and emotionally?

I don’t know. All I know is, right now I feel like she’s waiting for me, and my heart longs for her.

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Four weeks with Anki to learn Japanese

Posted in life, Uncategorized by Fated Blue on September 14, 2019

Originally posted on Facebook Sep 14 2019 11:30

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It’s been exactly one month since I started using the AnkiDroid app to learn Japanese. My daily routine for 30 days consist of learning right after I wake up, then reviewing the words and phrases I’ve learned around 4 or 5 pm and just before I sleep. It takes roughly an hour in total everyday. Sometimes slightly more.

Granted I would have learned more in an actual school with actual books and classmates, the fact that the app is free and can easily be accessed without internet (just download the “lessons”), I say the app really does the job.

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Week 2 with Anki to learn Japanese

Posted in life, Uncategorized by Fated Blue on September 14, 2019

Originally posted Sep 6 2019 20:25

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Two weeks in with the Anki app to learn Japanese. The main problem I have right now is knowing whether a kanji character is supposed to be spoken/read the same way in various phrases and sentences.

The character “ima” (currently/now) is used in the beginning for both kotoshi (this year) and kesa (this morning).

Then the kanji for home (pronounced as u-chi) can also be pronounced/read as “ie” if the meaning is “house.”

I’m trying to find a pattern here (noting if the pronunciation is different if it starts the phrase or is in the middle), but it’s really tough.

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